A feeling.

I think someone's mad at me. I'm sorry.

Rw.

"I need light in the dark as I search for the resolution" -Jack's Mannequin.

A resolution, that's what I need. Ta-dum di-dum.

Because I can't study.

Just a quick post.

I miss you. HAHA. Apakan, that's NOT what I wanted to say ;)

I have this ultimate headache, second only to that huge massive hole in my heart.

If only this kind of bullshit was flowing through my ink as I was doing my English paper.

Life never seemed so depressing.

I think I'm apathetic.

I can't seem to be enthusiastic about anything anymore.

Except for the rain.

And my friends. I love them, haha. Wow, this cheered me up. Now off to another depressing session of physics and biology.

Soccer!

Woohooooo, football! :D

For the first time in months, oh dear beloved readers, I am going to play with balls. :D No innuendos there. Apakan, hoho.

Being in the so-called 'nerd-class' does has its flip-sides. One of them, no physical education for the whole year. Yeah, so sad.

I don't mind though but it's just sad to be with your friends while they talk about something you have no idea about. It's as if you're intruding but you don't really have anywhere else to go. Haha, apakan.

So yeah, football at the JKR football field. Where's that? HAHA. I have 40 minutes to figure that out.

4 hours of football, hee. I can't wait! Sorry Hutchings, let's reschedule our date, lets say, 10am tomorrow?

Oh shoot, tomorrow's Friday. That means the next day is Saturday. Thus, it would only be logical that the day after would be Sunday. :(

Ergo, I have 3 days left (not counting today) before school reopens! :|

So far, I've only covered biology but that's not even done yet. I still have physics, chemistry, maths and English. Yeah, another flip-side to being in the nerd-class.

Hmm, yeah.

So readers, got to go. See you :)

Ambil kari!

I dedicated my day to biology.

And I kept my word. I revised core A, C and F. ;)

So um, yeah. :p

I've been at home, locked in and all, haha no lah. But I do feel imprisoned, so 'contained'. I need to break free. Soon, soon. Tomorrow anyway ;)

So, yeah. I was planning to make another emo post but somehow, something is stopping me. Well. someone to be precise.

Anyway, I just realized something a few months ago (wth?). I am a pessimist, probably the worst kind. The worse of the worse, in fact. But it is my ability to look beyond that that makes me an optimist. And I am by far, a very very optimistic person. I am sure everyone would agree with that, haha.

So here's my definition of optimisism: a pessimist is someone who sees something in the worst light possible but an optimist is someone who sees that light but tries to look beyond.

So in a way, we optimists (not to be confused with Optimus, which I also am) also do see what you pessimists do, it's just that we don't dwindle there to long. We know that that's the worst that could happen, so everything else just somehow seems more brighter. Meaning that when you focus on something bad, you'll never be happy.

Everyone is born a pessimist. It's up to you to stay that way and die miserable or be like us and live happy :D

So yeah, that's my cue to know that I'm officially drowsy, haha. Maybe it's all the painkillers, haha.

Actually, I'm just making this post to say that I studied today. :)

Oh, to make this more happy and fun, I'll write something I haven't done in ages.

Last night, I met my cousin.

Me: Wow, hi Jim.
Jim: Hi.
Me: Umm..
Jim: Yeah?
Me: Either aku makin tinggi or you shrunk masa di sana, HAHA.
*awkward silence*
Me: Well, hmm.. yeah.
Jim: Yeah.
Me: I think I know you why, haha. Pasal sana panas kan, yatah air keluar dari your body due to osmosis..
Jim: Mmmmbah Nafi, ku ke Mekah karang balik. Baik pulang ku doakan kau tu di sana. Macam makin crack kau ah, haha. Ooooo, riben pink.
Nafi: Oh.. hmm, wah katak!

HAHAHA. Apakan, it was funny. Pfft, who cares what you think, pessimist bastards ;)

Autobots, roll out.