My first speech.

Event: Awesome Speech #1
Venue: Counseling Room
Date: 02 February 2009
Time: Somewhere between 1-2pm.

This invitation is open to anyone. Anyone who has access to the counseling room that is. Need I say more? Hopefully 'Mom' won't be there. I'd be shy as hell.

Note: If by some cruel twist of fate that I did not make any speech, feel free to 'persuade' me to give one nonetheless. Results, though, will not be guaranteed. ;)

Time to get things organize.

Alright, results are over and done with. No point crying over spilt milk. I can't seem to concentrate these past few days but that's all about to change.. tomorrow. I promise. As for tonight.. maybe I'll finish that book Faruq borrowed me.

I somehow missed something important that seemed trivial when the results hysteria broke out: I met Pengiran Sarah during squash on Thursday. The girls there can't stop admiring her and I don't blame them. She is kind of good-looking. Leave it to the royal family to find a bombshell.

So, my agenda for tomorrow will be: finish all my homework.

If there's time to do anything else, maybe I'll read a book on geography. ;) Maybe biology. It's good to read ahead.

Speechless.

I'm not sure what to write.

There was an assembly for us today. Some of us were forced to leave school. It was a strange atmosphere, like the aftershock of an earthquake. Like everything else, it goes both ways.

People sit through class to class with their mind wondering off into oblivion. Teachers tried their best to get their attention but all in vain, most just give up and started talking to themselves. Another reason why I respect them and never want to be one of them.

Intellectuals walk around with their heads in the clouds, debating to themselves which scholarship course to take.

Others watch them bumble into desks, trip on their toes and fall down from the stairs in awe. Not really, but they wish. As for me? I wish them to get the hell out of MS as soon as possible. In a good way. :D

I, on the other hand, along with a hundred of hopefuls, are hanging on the edge. We are given hope, a tiny hope. A chance so slight one would be crazy to try and insane to let it pass. It drives us insane.

March pass is a compulsory act of patriotism for Lower Six in our school, apparently. To march in front of the Sultan is the highest honour a Bruneian could achieve, I believe. I also believe that unicorns lives with bigfoot at the end of the rainbow but what do I know, right?

So, as immediately as we were informed we had to practice, we were forced to start. It was fun, somehow. Funny, too. It just seems right to let lose your inner child. Even for a few minutes. I seem to hold a looser grip on it recently. Need to buy a tighter one soon.

I especially enjoyed my 'hanging out, let loose' time waiting for the march pass practice to start.

Oh, condolences to those who would have to leave us. Especially to Bahrin Asyikin, Ugama classmate for a year, friend for a lifetime. Farewell, ex-captain.

Squash was tiring. O'Levels are over and done with.

Results are finally out.

I'm going to tell you how I got mine.

"Hey Nafi, I got the message. Results are out," said Ayyub.

I stared at him in disbelief. "You're kidding, right?"

"Check your mobile."

So I checked and there it was, a new message notification. I swore. End.

Others weren't so lucky, they had to wait almost an hour after I got mine because apparently they were to cheap to spare $3 to get their results.

When they were finally posted up, I tagged along with them, for obvious reasons. Humans are curious little creatures, aren't they?

I won't describe the scene I saw. Mostly because I can't describe it but also because I am too tired to do so.

Congratulations to everyone who've got awesome results. Hope you'll continue your excellent streak and go away soon, please. The school's getting too crowded with all you smart-ass people.

I won't give my condolences to those who didn't do quite well. Truthfully, I think we all get what we deserve. Let's just hope that this will serve as a lesson for you in the future to strive for excellence (weiseh!).

No lah, I was just kidding. I'm sorry for you but you have to admit that you screwed up. So why not change now? You still have your whole life ahead of you.

Guess I'll be getting to know Brunei more because it seems like I'm here to stay. For another 2 years at least. Hopefully not but I'm not sure.

What I am sure though is that I'll work twice as hard from now on. My speech is still on Monday. The topic is.. a secret! I won't reveal anything here.

So, homework. Tomorrow everything must go.

Rumble Fish - 예감 좋은 날

I don't even know the name of the song. I just know that I love it.

The Belalong people are back. I didn't know Belalong is in Temburong, I thought it was in Tutong. If I knew that, I would have definitely come along.

They saw a waterfall.

That's going in my list for this year.

Uncertainty grips me as my reality sinks in. I am alone.

At least for tonight. Or maybe for the rest of the year.

I just realized how drastic my public relations are. I'm seriously in trouble there, I have a problem with speaking to the public. Or to anyone for that matter.

So here's my solution: I'll make a speech every 14 days and deliver it in the counseling room.

Yeah, that could work. One problem, I've known them for 2 years. Some even longer, but it'll do. For now.

Tomorrow's the Chinese New Year, as well as the day of the solar eclipse. So, to all you Chinese, happy new year! And please stop talking in class. You do know that you guys talk as if the world is coming to an end.

Adding to my list of buddies, I need an enemy. A healthy dose of rivalry is always good for your mental well-being. Plus, it'll be fun to scheme against someone. Trust me, it'll drastically improve your planning and chess-playing ability.

I miss my time in Japan. When life was simpler and far less complex.

Diary of Awangku Mohammad Hanafi.

I've finally got my post diary. My form teacher issued them this morning. It looks so nice that I couldn't bring myself to write anything in it.

So, now that I have a diary, let's hope that I'll use it. Not discard it aside and leave it to decompose for the year. I believe I have the cleanest diaries in the history of MS.

By the way, the fire alarm rang halfway into stats class and we had to waste an hour in the car park doing nothing. Stupid glitch in the system.

Some time during the day, I've decided how I'll tackle my dilemma. I'll just replace Faruq! But how do you replace a best friend..?

He'll still be my best friend, I'm sure, but I need a study-buddy. Since he won't always be with me, I guess a substitute or more are required.

So, buddies I need are:

1) Bio-buddy
2) Chem-buddy
3) Phys-buddy
4) Maths-buddy
5) English-buddy
6) PR-buddy

I need to learn how to speak perfectly in public. Preferably by the end of February.

Oh yeah! I also need a squash-buddy, someone to play squash with.

I don't think I need a swimming-buddy, I have Ayyub.

So, to my dearest readers, if you're interested in filling up these positions, please find me. ;)

On second thought, don't find me. I'll find you.

My life is out of control.

My world is unorganized and my life is spinning out of control.

I don't know who to ask about homework anymore.

About assignments.

About what the teacher just said.

About what I did.

About everything.

He left and now I am all alone in class.

Not really alone but I'm an idiom of someone who'd just lost a diary.

Earlier this week, I didn't realize how drastic my absence would affect those around me. I learn the hard way.

My cursed fever apparently caused 3 of my classmates to drop out of class and leave me since I left them. Cursed fever!

On the plus side, the class does seem a lot spacier since they've gone.

On the minus side, Faruq was among them.

So all together, 7 people had left PU1Z since school began on the 6th. From 29 students, we're left with 22.

Results will be out soon and I hate the dramatic wait. It's eating everyone inside.

I'm starting to fall in love with squash all over again. Though I still think badminton is the best and tennis is the coolest. I think I'm falling out of basketball.

Swimming is put on a definite hold unless the pool open on the Chinese New Year. Hoping that they do. I invited Ayyub, he's going to ask the pool. Don't know who else I should invite. Faruq and Jazmi are still out camping, Halim is in UK and Lawrence is Lawrence. No self-respecting Chinese would go out swimming on their new year.

I need to get my life back together. They've been apart for long enough.

Everyone is moving on.

My seniors' just graduated. :(

They will be sorely missed. Especially Fadhil, Azim, Bahri, Kahar, Dao, Adeq, Ayyub, Syefa, Nana, Bilah and everyone else.

Suddenly, the idea that no one will be there to watch our backs just seems so sad but I hope that we'll meet again someday, and soon.

In other news, apparently girls enjoy basketball too. Especially Wana. ;)

Speaking of school (were we?); there seems to be no end to the homework we're given, I need a rest. I can't keep sleeping around midnight. Though I seem to develop a knack to it. I may, just may, survive on 6 hours of sleep alone. Though not for long, I know.

That is why I am really going to enjoy my sleep tonight. Tomorrow's a Sunday! Although I do have tonnes of homework due on Monday.. this is depressing.

I was hoping to splash around the pool tomorrow but that seemed to put a dent to that plan. Guess I'll have to put a hold on that for awhile, at least until I've got my life sorted out.

I need glasses and I need them bad.

Thanks for the pen, Faruq. I love it. Know what else I love, the rain. Especially the January rain.

It just never seems to end.

2009.

I guess it's a little too late to wish everyone a happy new year.

Since everyone seem to be resolving themselves this year, I decided I should as well. Who wouldn't want a fresh start, right? So here's my new year's resolutions:

1) Be more religious.
2) Get top 5 in class.
3) Finish all my homework and assignments.
4) Do not taunt/tease/annoy my teachers.
5) Be more active, win something related to sports.
6) Stop swearing.
7) Study hard and study smart.
8) Be more polite (to everyone).
9) Stop being lame.
10) Blog at least once a week ;).
11) Swim twice a month.
12) Participate more in Student Council related activities, jobs, etc.
13) Save $50 a month.
14) Tennis once a month.
15) Basketball twice a month.
16) Read more books.

That's about it. Get top 5 in class, that's my (second) utmost priority at the moment. I need to show everyone that I have what it takes to be in the Z class.

Oh yeah, one more resolution:

17) Restrict online time.

But then, I can't really concentrate on my homework if I'm not online..

Anyway, the first week of school has been tiring but fun. The orientation for the year 7 students was fun and I'm actually starting to enjoy doing my homework. Though staying up until 11pm eacg night is starting to take a toll on me. I'm sure I'll be spending my weekend morning in my bed.

Since my brother is studying in MS as well, I have to stay back until 5.30pm but I wish Cikgu Harisah would entrust the Counseling Room key to me. I should ask her tomorrow. That way, I won't be kick out an hour before my car arrives, wondering around aimlessly in school.

That's about it. I miss the orientation and the year 7s. Jupiter rules! We won first place, man!

To everyone, happy belated new year of 2009. May your 2009 rock!